if i could choose my death scene

If I could choose my death scene I would be sure to make it perfect. First of all I would not want to die due to some kind of sickness because that would be to painful and I dont want to be in pain when I die. I want to die happy and have no regrets in life. I would also want to die knowing that when I was gone the people that I love like my family and friends would be happy and live a good life. I mean I dont want them to be happy because I died. I would want them to just live a good life and move on within time. However I would still of course want the people around me to be sad. That way ill know that they didnt hate me or think I was a bad person.

I dont want to die to young but then again I really would not want to die young either because than I would have wasted my youth. I dont want to be the type of person that feels like I have wasted my life when I die. I think that would be one of the worst feelings in the world.

I want to die in my house or in my husbands house. I would of course want to be married by then but I wouldn’t want my husbands life to stop just because I died. I dont want to have kids if mi dying early because then my kids would be left without there mother. I would not want them to have to be taken care of by a step mother. Even if the step mother will love them with all she has it is still just not the same as a actual mother loving her children. There will always be a difference.

When I die I want to be laying on my bed very comfortably and I would want to be laughing when I die. I want to die with a smile on my face not tears. I would hope to have seen my entire family that day and all my friends. Then I would just go in my room lay down on my bed and fall asleep. I think dying in your sleep is one of the best deaths because you feel no pain. I want everything around me to be peaceful and I want to die with no one around me so I wouldn’t feel weird. I dont want to be very old and I dont want to be young, maybe just when I am between the ages 50 to 60. that will be ok. I would just lay in my bed and I want to have a dream. A nice dream for the last few seconds I am alive would be perfect. Everything will seem normal and in place. I just want to pass away not feeling any sadness, madness, or guilt. Those are some of the worst feelings to feel when your alive. So I would not want those to be my emotions before I die. I want to feel loved and happy with my life.

So I would of course just want to die peaceful alone in my bed.