Scenery

This is beautiful of picture of winter snow. Its sometime in the middle of the winter when its not to cold but you can also tell its not hot, of course with the snow still on the floor. The paved walk way has already frozen and is covered with snow. You can tell that there has been someone that has been taking care of the scenery in this picture because the walk way has been cleaned off.

This pictures isn’t really perfect but its beautiful because its natural. The frozen paved walk way with covered in snow has been brushed. You can tell that the walk had been cleaned and brushed off because the snow looks like its all the same amount, and not all chunky. The sides of the walk way are piled with bundles of snow. The walk way can probably be big enough for a car to in and out. There are trees lined up around the path. The tree trunks of the trees are brown and white because of the winter temperature. These are the type of trees that still bloom during the winter. However the leaves are not green. The branches of the trees are dangling downwards and the wind is blowing on the branches so its sways through the air. The leaves are not green but sparkling white. It looks like frozen branches and leaves look like snow.

The time of the day is around sunset. The suns orange rays are glistening along a few of the trees. It casts a shadow along the walk way. There are many trees some are white with a blue tint and some are white but has a touch of orange on it. Because the sunset is only shining on a few trees. Thus the picture consists of two different main colors. The trees that the sun isn't shining on looks peaceful and a little dull. However the certain trees that are shined on by the sun gives out a much more happy and fun feeling. The leaves look more puffy and soft and the branches are more defined by the light.

All the trees have a different size trunk. Some are especially skinny while some are just the right size. They are not alined with perfect spacing between them but it is all along both sides of the walk way.

This scene gives out a very peaceful yet happy feeling. Its the type of picture that you can imagine walking in and just standing there admiring the scene. The picture has no animals nor people in it which makes it look very silent and dull. But the sunlight in the picture lights it up. The sun sets orange colors gives the winter night a bit more color. You can see little bits of the sky through the branches and leaves of the tree. The night is not yet dark but a dim blue. The sky is dim blue only one side of the picture though because the other side is shined on with the orange sunset.

The snow has already all settled on the floor and its a beautiful scene.

embarrassing things

My most embarrassing moment in my life would be when I was really young and I was walking around the taste of marinas with my friends and one of my friends just happened to spill a cup of slushy all over me.

It was about like 3 or 4 years ago. I was really young and me and my friends were just hanging out at the Taste of Marianas. We like to go to those events because theres a lot of cheap food and plus we always get to see our friends from another school. Anyway I like going threre. So I was there and it was really dark. We dont like to eat there because its really loud and theres a lot of annoying people that I hate. People tend to piss me off. So me and my friends like to go to some place quiet and laugh by ourselves. Its more fun that way and I don’t get pissed off. This time I was pissed off though because mi the type of girl that likes to get ready and dress up nice when I go out.

That’s why this was so embarrassing for me. We all went to get a slushy when we were there because it was so damn hot. So we all went to get a cup of slushy. It was really good and we were walking and laughing about something. It was really fun at the time. So like we were walking and laughing about something. Suddenly my friend celine tripped. And we were laughing really hard and she was laughing to. But we were laughing so hard that she tripped again but that this time she triped on this huge root and got her shoe stuck.

When she tripped she spilled her slushy all over me. The worst part was that the fact that I was wearing white shorts. So I had this huge red stain on my white shorts. I was so embarrassed because I couldn’t go home right away. I had to stay there and walk around meeting up with my old friends. It was really gross because I had slushy in my hair too. And my hair was really really sticky but I couldnt do anything about it. I didnt do anything about it because I couldn’t. I just had to keep waiting for my parents to pick me up. But they were so slow it pissed me off. So I got home and I just washed my hair about 3 times and I threw away my white shorts cause they were completely stains so I didnt want to bother trying to wash them out. Even though I really liked those shorts.

After that I didnt really like going to those types of events anymore. It kind of made me feel like those places arent really for hanging out just getting food and leaving. So now I dont really go to those places anymore. Unless I'm with my friends just to get food really quickly. Than we all just leave.

3000 stream of conciousness

So like wer going to do this 3000 words again. But I guess its ok cause I have nothing better else to do like I like tumblr but not always and facebook is starting to bore me. Im just looking at my nails right now and their like turquoise ish color blue ish green and its very pretty I got the nail polish from celine or was it christine im no treally sure but I painted it during my history class today. We were suppose to be doing our research papers or something but then it was like really boring and I lost my notes and I was really pissed off but then I couldn’t do anything about it so I just sat there like painting my nails. I really like typing but the thing Is I type so fast and like non stop so it really makes my hands hurt. And sometimes I really just dont even make sense while im typing. Typing is like working out for my hands and its really weird and after you stop typing your hands are kind of numb. Ii only got so fast in typing because when I was young my sister or cousin or something whatever but shes a girl and she made me an msn messenger and I was on it like so often I was just always chatting with people that I like i got so good at typing but you can totally tell that my grammar and spelling suck because well obviously im spelling like everything wrong right now. Im watching raffy walk towards me and now hes singing candy shop and hes wearing black and white with black and white shoes. White shirt black basketball shorts. Not bad I really like guy when they wear simple things. Oh my god I love it when I guys like white beaters or just a white t-shirt and jeans man I think that is like really really hot. Well of course the man has to be hot himself but you know what I mean. I real,y dont like school lately like idk im just so stressed about everything I dont really know what do like in my pre cal class im failing and I hating but im bad at math and stuff so I dont really mind failing. But anyway like I dont really know what to talk about so im just going to tell you about my day. So last night holy crap I just remembered I can write about my really weird dream. Theres this thing like when you think your sleeping but your not really sleeping and like you think your awake but you cant even wake up. A lot of people think that its a ghost or something on top of you like not letting you wake up but then I dont really know what it is iv only had that twice like in my whole life and it really is scary like I was like HOLY CRAP what is going on. So the story is like I was just laying on my bed and fell asleep and at the same time I left my computer on so my Skype was on and I was skyping with this guy at the time but anyway yea I fell asleep with hat on so he was just like there. And he didn’t hang up either. But anyway onwards with my story. Like I was sleeping and like suddenly I felt like I was awake but I really couldn’t move and I had no idea what was going on. Then I just felt like I wanted to scream. I was trying to say the guys name because I didn’t know what else to say and I kept saying it in my mind but no words were coming out it was just really weird and scary and I couldn’t say anything or move but my mind was wide awake. I could see myself lying there on my bed and I can see everything around me like my room and my stuff. But then I screamed really loud and I woke up screaming. The guy freaked out cause he heard me and he was like what the hell what are you doing its like 3 am. Well yea I sleep really late. And anyway like last night that happened again. It was really the same thing though it was a little bit different I was laying in my bed and of course once again my Skype was on. Well anyway I had a dream about that. Like I had a dream about laying in bed sleeping and dreaming and in my dream I was dreaming but I couldn’t wake up. OK I sound totally dumb because its hard to explain what I was seeing in my mind. But I just couldn’t wake up and oh yea the scary part was like cause I have these chairs. Like I have 3 chairs in my room and two of them have wheels so you can role around. For some reason I thought I heard noises. Or I know I heard noises at least in my dreams I did. The noise was like someone sitting on my chair and rolling towards me. That’s why I was trying to scream but I couldn’t make any sounds. It was just really weird and I hate that feeling But yea I don’t really know what it is. Its just really scary. A lot of people like Asians say that its a ghost or a spirit on top of you not letting you wake up or like taking over your body or something. Im not really a person who believes that kind of stuff but who knows. There’s a lot of things that people cant explain in this world. I was just telling this story because I thought it was kind of interesting. Its much more interesting if I tell you in person or whoever is reading this 3000 word blog. But im sure not many people will read this unless your a teacher or like someone that’s just likes to read other peoples thoughts. Sometimes my thoughts are really dumb they have like just random things going through it and most of the time it doesn’t even make sense like sometimes I say things without thinking. And like when people do that other people get hurt cause sometimes those things are exactly nice. Right now im like completely zoning out. Im staring at my purse its black and grey. I bought it in Taiwan. Actually my mom got it and I just took it from her. She has her own Celine bag so she doesn’t need it. And anyway like I like this typing thing. Well I dont like it like like it like it. I only like it like as if its fun its actually like really relaxing to just type out everything your feeling. Holy crap like last night when I had that nightmare of how I couldn’t wake up. But when I finally did wake up I felt like screaming my head off. I think it was because I couldn’t scream in my dream and I when I did wake up I wanted to let it all out. But obviously I didn’t because my mom is like right upstairs and if I scream shes probably going to come down with like gun and be like what the hell are you doing go to sleep. It was really late. I think that thing always happens to me because I don’t get enough sleep. Omg Its Friday and I totally love Fridays because I always go to abbys house or like christines house and we just chill. Today we are all going to christines new restraunt cafe thing for dinner. Its really good I love it there. And her house is so pretty. Which reminds me. I have these people staying over at my house. They’ve been there for a long time well not as long as me of course maybe like 2 years now. And anyway they painted the house next to mine BLUE. Like really blue.. I was like omg it looks like a really old and like cheap looking house. I mean it already didnt look old but now it just looks cheap. I told my mom they should have painted it like white because white iis always pretty. I dont really have certain color that I like but I think white is the best. I love white. First of all because it makes you look clean and nice. White matches like just about everything. I love getting french tips and stuff because its so cute. Like it so simple. I love getting manicures but I hate paying for them like its so useless. Cause I can do my nails like better than other people. Maybe not like completely professional and stuff but than like its pretty good. I like it. Omg im still looking at my ring and its totally cute. HOLYYYYY like today my friend evert came over to visit our school and he just told me that this guy that use to like me and the one who gave me this ring. Or the other tiffany ring on my finger is in Saipan. I was like are you freaking kidding me. He told everyone that he left. Whatever though. Anyway like my neck is kind of hurting right now. Maybe cause im sitting like weirdly sideways. Hahah so right now the people waering white is the new guy joon the two new girls christine abby and celine. Pretty cute. I think whites just such a cute color. My mom paint my room green one time it was really weird. It was like a light baby green hahahha I dont know I thought it wasnt like ugly but it wasn’t like cute. Or sort of cute if you like green. I wonder how many words I have already. I dont thinking up to 3000 yet so im just goinng to keep typing. Man like my thumb hurts from hitting the space bar so much. I think I need to slow down. But I really dont want to because I just want to finish this. If I dont finish my stuff at school or just like my blogs I know I wont do it at home. I cant concentrate for some reason. Hahaha well yea thats that I guess. I think my eyes are getting worse everyday because I cant see anything. I mean I can see the screen but its not even that clear. Wow I really have really bad eyes. My eyes got worse from 2 years ago. This summer I was in china and my glasses dropped on the floor and like I didn’t have time to pick it up because I was doing something with my face I dont remember what. Probably like putting on make up or a toner or something. But short story long samson came in and stepped on them. And it like cracked in half. But it didnt break it was just like slanted when I put it on my face. I tried to like wear it cause I wanted to watch this movie. It was a chinese drama love story. It was so cute I loved it. But I got so dizzy because I was trying to see through slanted glasses. I looked so dumb. I really dont like wearing glasses. My mom says that I look really ugly with them. I only waer them in class when I need to concentrate and stuff. Of course when I went to taiwan this summer I got new ones. Their black and very plain but thats good I dont want like something super bright on my face. Black and white are nice but I dont wear white glasses. White glasses should be for joon. I think he looks really good in white glasses. Thats like his thing right there hahha pretty nice. I think he got really tall like all the guys in my class use to be shorter than me or like about the same size but now everyone’s like a head taller than me and I always wear heels which is so dumb. I bought so many heels that now when I want to wear flats I notice I dont even have one pair. Its so sad to not have what you want. I should check how many words I have right now. Omg I dont want to look at the screen so im looking at the chair next to me. I really LIKE THE SMELL OF MY HAIR BECAUSE IM STILL using THAT NEW SHAMPOO I GOT. Ok see this is why we need to look at the screen when we type and not other things cause now half of my sentence was like on caps. But caps kind of helps me see more clearly. The times new roman font is so small and like squished together. O wait o yea I forgot to check how many words I have alrighty ok I will do that right now. Im not even checking it cause im to lazy to open google. Ok im going to check it now! I only have 2000 some right now I thinki need to right a page more. I wonder what other people write about. I always type about like my life and stories that dont really make sence. But I guess its better than just typing like. Red blue green yellow. Wow that actually takes up a lot of words. Ok so im going to play a game with myself. Ill just look around the class room and see what I see and whatever comes to my mind I will type it down. I feel like this is going to be so dumb but whatever. Ok so right now amy is looking at me. Wait thats not part of the game. Ok starting now. Black white wheels the door is green that monkey is looking at me I feel like that thingy on the wall is about to fall off and thats dangerous. I see amy xie looking around the classroom maybe shes going to do the same thing as me. Now im looking at jeng I like his shoes seri and ashley have really cute computers cause their pink and everyone else has black on. There’s this projector on the table. I see trees with frogs and birds. I want to own a unicorn and have really long hair. I like the number 5 well not really I just said but but I like short shorts and tank tops. I like side slanted shirt and I love the ones that you tie up and go to the beach. I really would like to get a belly ring but my mom dosent want me to. Joon changed his glasses to black and my teacher is waering a polo shirt. Abby is waering a white tank top that belongs to christine. Christines waering a black tank top that we baught toogether with a white jacket over amy is all blue and celine is pink and white. I am waering a side slanter blue but kind of green shirt with short hosrts black belt and black shoes. Their wedges of ourse. I see a light switch and there are one two three four five six seven ok there are a lot of lights in the class room. I see a bottle with the tag high school on it. Ok thats about it. And my butt is starting to cramp. I really want to go somehwere and buy a hula hoop so I can hula hoop all night and hopefully have slim waist or a slimmer wiast and I want to go jogging but I know I cant do that because saipan Is just way to hot to go out and run around in the sun. thats only ok when im with friends at a beach or something ok right now im just going to change positions and put my head down because im like really tired an my back I hurting wow I should just type like this because im like closing my eyes right now and just typing and it reallys really good my head is like laying on my arm and everything is dark. I think im like a bat or something because I really like to stay in the dark. Its just better than being in the sun. OK now I just woke up again and everyone’s like laughing at Jinnah I think hes really funny when I fist met him I couldn’t pronounce his name so I called him Paul and now a lot of people call him Paul Holy crap my hair is like in my so I just put my head down again I really just wanna like fall asleep right now cause my legs hurt and I slept really late last night because of that stupid dream or like nightmare or whatever it was. In staring at my shorts and the pockets like come out cause their so short they have like splashed paint on them I really like it. I bought it with my mom when I was in china. In to lazy to check how many words I have so im just going to keep typing tell I see the end of the page near this word doc. Ok so like I dont like soccer or basketball but I do like to watch people play those two balls. I think its fun and like exciting well they have to be goo and it has to be like a really intense game for me to be in it. Right now I think im fat. Now like I want to eat healthy. But I just bought a whole bunch of new snacks and junk at my house I guess I will just finish all that stuff first because it would be such a waste to just throw it away. O my god im going to have to go back and like correct all the mistakes I did that is going to be so annoying but whatever I just want to finish this already.

streak of conciousness

Right now there’s like no power and its really hot cause Im wearing this shirt I just bought like two days ago at I love saipan. Its like a big pink sweater and its really cute. It says LOVER in the front and I was with my mom and she thought it was cute so we bought it together. I’m not suppose to be buying much things I’m suppose to like save money. But I still went shopping which is kind of dumb. I went to payless like last night to find some shoes. I hate buying shoes on saipan because theres like not much choices to pick from. I really like wedges and strappy shoes cause I think their really cute. Platform wedges are totally cute but thing is I went shoping like crazy in Taiwan this summer and I went all out on shoes. But thing I just baught heels and heels only. I baught around like 6 pains of heels and no flats. Right now I totally wanna wear flat cause I think their cute too but I dont have any which is like so sad. Oh my god. Like yesterday at school my stomach suddenly started hurting and it like pissed me off cause it hasnt hurt like that like ever but anyway thing is I was hurting like crazy so I went home n slept. Then it like got better but then later on it got worse agin I was like wtf and my mom wanted to take me to the hospital but I didnt want to go because well obviously the saipan hostpital sucks they dont do crap and just make you wait. I rather die at the house than in the waitng room. Least my beds comfy. Omg which reminds me my room is so messy. My moms always cranking at me to clean my room and I do. But like after I clean my room I need to pick out my clothes for the next day. I love matching my clothes for school. Or for like anything you. I hate people who totally dont match their clothes. Omg theres like some girls out there that are just so ugly and they dont match their clothes which is like so ugly. And amy is like scratching her arm right now which kinda grossed me out because she told us one time she didnt shower her head we were like wtf thats so nasty. Sometime you can like do that if you stay home all day and stay in bed. Omg amy SHUT UP. Ashleys so cute when she laughs. But any way omg sometimes I just hate what amy waers but she has such cute clothes she just matches them really weirdly. Hahaha like one time I was infront of mirror like matching my clothes for the next day or something. And my mom comes in and shes like wth I thought you were doing homework and I was nahh I do that later. And shes like why cant you do homework instead of matching your clothes. Omg like my room was so messy. Idk why but mostly after I pick out a outfit my room is like completely trashed. Haha I rember that time me christine and celine webt to abbys house we its like a tornado hit her room. We tried onn all her clothes. I just realized I sound like totally stupid right now but its ok. I like this blog I think its fun even tho it shows all I think about are like clothes. O I like hot guys to I wish saipan had hotter guys or MORE guys. There are so much more pretty girls than hot guys. Which is so not fair. I think our class girls are all pretty cute and pretty. Or most of us anyway. Lately I love curly hair. I like sat in my room thinking how to curl my hair so I would look cuter. My hairs like really soft. Omg like I baught this new shampoo from Dove and it smells so nice. I also got the Dove conditioner and body wash to. I think im like a totally freak when it comes to things that go together you know. Like I like everything that matches and from the same brand you know that kinda stuff. But yea im like looking at the rings on my finger. One of thems like this really cute big ring and its like shaped like a rose and the others this tiffany ring that this guy bought. Omg I wish I was nicer to him though cause I mean like he was nice and baught me a whole lota expensive things but yea I wish I was nicer to him. I think I would have gotten like even more presents hahaha just kidding I dont wanna be that mean. I can buy my own stuff. But yea anyway this sweater thing that I bought yesterday I making me really hot right now cause frekin saipan has no power all the time I Ilived in like the states or something but everyone thinks im going to like go crazy partying and all that crap. Which idk probably I will hahah saipans like so boring but I still find things to do which is good. People that just like stay home all day and all weekend with no social lives I dont even know how their alive. ESXPECIIALLY THE GIRLS omg like I think girls should always be out with like other girls shopping or something gossip about other stuff. Omg and like girls that are in high school some of them never even got to first base with a guy I have no idea how their alive. But yea. Anyway I just noticed amy's shoes are like totally generice looking boots off of Tumblr. Tumblr is actually really fun I like to look at all the cute stuff and see what I have in my closet. Hahah which reminds me like I was in china and taiwan during summer and my brother was with me to but he had this like HUGE suitcase well I mean it wasnt THAT big but it was pretty big it had like all his clothes and like his whole room in there cause you know hes like going to college and crap. But anyway I had this like tiny suitcase that was really cute it was LV but anyway like holy cow I baught so many things I actually had to buy a whole new suitcase the same size as my brothers. It was so funny cause we had like the same size suitcase filled but mine was just clothes from summer and his is like his whole life in saipan. Hahaha anyway holy crap its so hot right now my make up better not be smeared I hate smeared make you cause you look like a hobo. Like omg go wash your face jeez. But yea I feel like getting a manicure ahh I really want a massage right now. I got this super relaxing whole body oil massage in taiwan it was SO nice. And my nails are like plain right now. Omg amy is calling for soo ho jeez do your work this is like so easy. I like typing cause usualy I like to look at my hands on the key board. Now im looking at my legs. Im getting like skinnier which isnt a bad thing its pretty good I guess but im like already skinny so I kinda wanna get fatter. I baught all this junk food. Well I always do that but I cant even eat it cause my mom thinks my stomatchs like retarted and I need to take a break from all the crap I eat which I agree so im not eating it for now. So like I like to look at my hands when I type cause I think my rings are really pretty and plus my bracelets are cute. But right now I really just want to take off my shirt or my sweater thing like its really cute and all and the color matches my tan. But I cant take it off cause im like at school and theres like teachers and other people and im waering like a white tank top under and its like completely see through. So I think I should just keep it on. Omg like am I done im guna like check this crap. So im like about to do the word check thing but than internet is like so slow. Haha omg I think the two words I say the most are omg and like. Idk why I say like so much but its so hard not to . I think I wanna dress like cute pe girl tomorrow. Pe outfits can be tottaly cute sometimes. O wow mr lee is taking a picture of us cause for once wer all doing our work. I should pose! Hahaha just kidding. But I like pictures omg not really sometimes tho cause I look like crap in pictures. I rather just meet up in person (; this better be like 2000 ish words already. Wow I spell like everything wrong. I think I should like yea anyway whatever. Omg I just checked how manywords I just typed and its so little why am I typing so slow today its only like not even 2000 well whatever so I should just think about like what to think about. Well ok first of all I frekin hate math and I suck at it. Which is stupid cause im Chinese and I should be like good in math. Girls are so judgemental like yesterday when we eat lunch or like everyday when we eat we sort of just sit there looking at some of the people that pass by and we just ook at like what they like wear and stuff and omg some people really massive repeat their outfits. I dont know but I really hate wearing my clothes over and over again I think its so ugly. I think for like girls like me clothes and like outer apearance is really important. Like all that crap about inner beauty is so gay because its not true. Not like people gonna wanna get to know you if your ugly on the outside. You don’t even have to be super pretty just be decent and wear some nice clothes that people will like notice you and you wont feel like your crap. Shh mi looking at someone right now and its so not OK like what mi thinking. So mi like thinking my grade sucks. Oh wow I wanna go shopping right now. Omg I was so pissed last night or not really pissed but idk OK I need to stop writing Idk and start typing I don’t know cause thats like a extra three words and plus I say I dont know a lot so I should just type that. In looking at numbers right now 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 0 oh my frekin god I hate math so much. I think its so ugly. Ahhh amys outfit makes me mad her shoes are like muddy. I really like my shoes right now cause I think their really cute its kind of like a light color but not really well actually yea it is. Its like light color and its strappy and their like platform wedges haha I bought it last year its adorable. Hahah I just noticed that I have these like really dumb writings on my hand. I usually dont like to write crap all over my hands but I just wrote words and I think they look really cute even though their like cuss words. I think we cuss to much. Like the girls I hang out with and stuff. But whatever its OK I think mi going to like go home and sleep forever. Ah my mom like always makes me write Chinese and its so annoying well I guess mi learned but whatever. Wow I think I sound so dumb right now. Talking about what I hate omg mi going to have to go back and like correct all those stupid mistakes. So mi thinking about how hot it is and I would rather be in a bikini laying on a chair next to a pool in a 5 star hotel drinking a cold drink with some friends and watching a hot life guard do his job. But of course we can all get what we want. That would be so perfect though hah aha OK mi totally dreaming to much I should get back to like my thoughts. My thoughts are always about cute clothes hot guys funny and kind of mean jokes. Its so true like holy crap the mean jokes are the funniest. I dont know how people or myself come up with jokes that are just so mean about other people. But I just think their so funny. Like I was talking to celine and she was telling me or like all of us when I say all of us thats like me abby christine and celine. So anyway celine was like telling me that all the little kids are like scared of us or something. Ew amy just announced she finished her words that is sucha lie I bet she just copied and pasted stuff. Whatever sucha fake. We always try to be nice to her but it just never works. And she just sometimes like annoys us but we try to tolerate it and crap you know. OK so mi thinking about dogs cats food candy and if my laptop runs out of battery right now mi going to have a BF omg shes gonna have a BF wait no whats a bf **** mi guns write a letter . Dear Mr hotel name. I am SO frekin pissed. AMY SHUT UP . She just talked to me about something dumb. Anyway. Hahah well you were thinking it well you said it omg your so baddd hahah I love that stuff its so funny. Dude powder me. Hello give me a pat. Hey so like you haven’t called lately. Do you wanna come over later? Ew why are you talking to her. Wipe it off coke face. Ahhhh im am so embarrassed. Im lactoseinterlorant or however you spell that. Is there cheese in this? Dude that is cheese. Omg her look at her butt it is so big. She looks like one of those rap guys girlfriends I mean ew just look at it. That song is so funny. Omg am I done with this already I wanna be DONE ah mi guna embarsed. check again again omg I always spell again wrong and it pisses me off why dosent this word thing just get me so I continue typing and itll just like understand what mi trying to type and just fix it without me having to like frekin right click and pick out the obviously right word. I cant help it if I type messy. Whatever though at least I type faster than most people. Omg I thought I just I like cut everything off and everyone was like quiet and I was like so loud mi like O MY GOD I was so pissed but anyway yea so this is dumb what was I going to do just now o yea I wanted to check if mi done with this blog thing.

the most influential person in my life

The most influential person in my life would be Natalie Portman. Natalie Portman is an actress born in Jerusalem. Her father is a doctor and her mother is an artist. She is on e of the best actors in my opinion. There are many things that make her a good actor such as her ability to play different roles. Not only is she one of the most beautiful women in Hollywood, she is also very intellectually gifted. She is known world wide and many people love her. She has her fans but of course like everyone else she has her critics. People will have different opinions about her but in my opinion she is one of the people that have a great influential power on me.

Natalie Portman went to college at Harvard University and graduated with a B.A degree in 2003. However Natalie Portman did have certain health issues. Natalie became the first Harvard College graduate that earned a Academy Award for best actress.

In my opinion I belive that Natalie Portman is a good actress because she can play all different types of roles and characters. For example in the new movie “Black Swan” Natalie Portman is the main character along with Mila Kunez. Natalie Portman played a contradicting role. She played the Black Swan and the White Swan. The black swan was a type of evil spirit that inhabited her body and whenever her body was taken over by that spirit she would not be able to control herself and her actions. She then also played the role of a White swan, a beautiful creature. Being bale to play two different types of people is a very hard thing to do. I think Natalie Portman did a terrific job in playing these two roles. Not only did she show her beautiful and evil side, but she also revealed a very sexy and seductive character. Some people are known as beautiful and some people are known as cute. But its hard to be able to be everything. Being able to be beautiful and sexy at the same time isn’t easy, but Natalie Portman pulled it off.

Many people in the world are beautiful in different ways. However it is hard to be perfect. In my opinion I would say that girls such as Natalie Portman come very close to being perfect. I don’t know her on a personal level of course so I don’t know how her personality is. However I wouldn’t say she was a terrible person. But being intellectually curious and also gorgeous on the outside are two very important things. Some people would say that looks don’t matter and its all about who you are and what you do. However that isn’t always true. The truth hurts and the truth is people always look at you and judge you from your outer appearance. We are all humans and whether we like it or not we all have our own opinion. That’s what differentiates us from one another.

Natalie Portman also does a lot of photo shoots and modeling. Models are knows to have perfect facial structures and a magnificent tall skinny body. But that is one of the reasons why I admire Natalie Portman. Yes she does have a beautiful face but she is very short. She is skinny and small, but her body is still nice. I like how she is still confident in who she is and isn’t intimidated by others who are taller or have a better body than her. I think self confidence and courage can completely reconstruct a person. Always feeling like your less than everyone else will eventually lead you into being someone you really don’t like. But being confident in what your doing and living up to the consequences will eventually lead you into being someone who is brave and not afraid of showing who you are to others.

I feel like I can see the confidence and intimidation that radiates off of her and I want to learn from her. I feel that she has a lot of influence on many young girls around the world, including me. She has done so much with herself and she has shown that women can be just as successful as man. She has proven herself academically and physically strong and stern.

the types of people i love

There are different types of people who surround me everyday. There are people who tend to get on my nerves but there are also people that I learn to love when I get to know them. There are people in this world that no matter what they do they will have the attraction towards other people. I love the type of person who is straight up honest, I enjoy being with people who are care-free at certain times and knows how to party, and lastly I love to be with people who understand me.

Being honest is a very important trait in life. If you are a liar people will eventually begin to think you are a terrible person and not want to be around you. Sometime the truth hurts and often people lie to protect others. However I like the type of person who isn’t scared to express the emotions and thoughts they are having. If someone tells you what they think your flaws are you have the chance to change them and make better of yourself. But if people tend to lie and say good things to you when their actually just laughing about it behind your back, you will have no chance to learn whats right from wrong. People that tell sarcastic jokes tend to get on my nerves, doing it once in a while is one thing but doing the same thing everyday will make me walk away. I hate people who lie about their lives and themselves. Why would someone be ashamed of themselves. Expressing yourself is one of the most important things in my opinion. There is no need to lie about yourself, to me, if your don’t like who I am than I don’t need you in my life. I love people who are honest and courage because that the type of person that will end up being your true friend in life. They will tell you the truth even though it hurts, but they will also help you get pass all the hardship in your life.

I especially love people who know when to just relax and have fun but can also be serious when it is necessary. People who are always uptight and stubborn about things annoy me. Being young and having fun is what life is about. Why not live life to its fullest extent? People who always stay at home and are antisocial will never understand how fun and exciting life will be. I feel sorry for those who do not take the opportunity to make friends and have fun. Having fun is essential in every teenagers or child’s life. Being care-free doesn’t mean you don’t think about other things except partying. To me care-free is being able to do what you want when you want. Living a liberal and exciting life is good for everyone. Of course boundaries must be set up, but sometime rules are just made to be broken. Constantly doing everything everyone tells you to do will transform you into being dependent on others. If you learn to make your own choices and follow what your heart tells you to do, you will learn how fun life is and you will also learn to be independent.

Everybody has a best friend, whether if it was during your child hood or your teenage years. I love to express what I feel and my thoughts and I party excessively, but I love the feeling of being with someone alone who understands me. That person doesn’t have to be your best friend it could be your boyfriend, husband, wife, family member, sometime even a random stranger. But being with someone who truly understand how you feel will calm you and you will know what to do with yourself if you are having conflicts in your life. I love the people who take the time to listen to everyone else s stories and give their opinions on how to help them out. There are just some people in the world that understand others correctly, those are the type of people that I love. Being open minded about everything isn’t always a bad thing. I am very open minded and I listen to what people have to say, sometimes spilling out your heart to a random stranger can actually improve your lifestyle. People who understand whats going on and know what to do are the best type of people to surround yourself with. But always doing the right thing can get boring. People need to get loose and get crazy every once in a while.

Surrounding yourself with different types of people you love is the best way to live life. They will tell you whats right and whats wrong, they will walk with you through hard times, and they will party like there’s no tomorrow. You should live your life to its fullest, have no regrets.

what is beauty

Many people have different views on what they think beauty is. Beauty to a lot of people usually mean someone that is gorgeous such as a movie star or a idol they love. However to some people beauty can mean a perfect moment of something such as a beautiful view of the world. I think that beauty can be many things. When a baby is first born the father or mother will think that what they have just created is the most beautiful thing in the world, that can be considered as beauty.

When you are young, most teenagers will think of beauty and think of a certain movie star they love. People do many thins to become what they think is beautiful. Girls at any age tend to put tons of make up to look beautiful. Some people go through plastic surgery because the really believe that that could make them more perfect. I think that’s not real beauty though. I think real beauty is what you have inside your. The things you say and the thoughts you think show what kind of person you are. If you think beautiful thoughts and do nice things, people will learn to accept your inner beauty no matter how bad your outer appearance is.

Teenage girls will think that being beautiful is one of the most important things in their young lives. Thus we tend to buy unnecessary clothing and jewelry to express ourselves. I myself put on make up everyday and match my clothes. Clothes can also make you beautiful and feel self confidence.

Being self confidence is also a type of beauty that you can express. Being confident but not cocky can be a type of attraction towards certain guys. Some guys find beauty within you, not just your outer looks. That is the type of guy that you want to live the rest of your life with. Girls should stay away form guys that just see the outside.

Beauty is also when you see a perfect moment and you are with someone you really love. That moment to you can feel beautiful and perfect. To me that is real beauty. A feeling that you can express in words only in actions.

When you are with someone you really like you will feel that nothing else can turn you away from that person. A person that makes you feel beautiful when you first wake up in the morning. Beauty is not just outer appearance but it is also a feeling.

Some people think that beauty is just the exterior but they are wrong. There are many things that can express how beautiful you are and you should let people bring you down. People that judge other people based on their appearance to make themselves feel better is true ugliness. Beauty can be expressed in so many different ways depends on who you are and how you look at things.

When you have your first boyfriend and you two are so in love for the first time. That is a very natural feeling and some people will consider that beautiful. Just the same as when you see your first born child and your husband is standing next to you. That feeling will not come to often in your life. You should cherish every beautiful moment that comes your way and you will live a happy life. Beauty is not just looks and people should remember that. It is important to know that everyone has inner beauty.

Inner beauty will express true beauty. However it might take a certain person to bring out your inner beauty and to show you that you are beautiful. Being with someone like that for the rest of your lief will make you happy. Everyone likes the feeling of being beautiful. Waking up to a man that tells you your beautiful every morning will obviously make you happy. Being with a man like that will make you feel that you have lived a good life.

my perfect spouse

Everybody has a perfect spouse. People have a different view of who they want to live the rest of their lives with. Some people look at personalities and some people look at appearance. However I like to look at both. If a man is very handsome but has a terrible personality, they will end up being ugly too. There is a saying that you are who you pretend to be. So my perfect man would have to have the looks and the characteristics or personal traits.

My man would have to look better than everyone else. (: I am very short but I would like my man to be much taller than me. Not to tall but around the height of at least 6 ft. I would like him to have very defined facial features. I would like my man to be very good looking but there are different types of good looks. Some men look very pretty. I don’t like pretty boys because people will think they look girly and look prettier than me. I like men with a very defined jaw and eyes are important. I would like to wake up every morning to the same eyes I went to sleep with. My mans eye color would have to be something that everyone likes to look at. I would enjoy looking into his eyes everyday and not get tired of them. I think the color of someones eyes is a very important trait.

All girls like to be protected and feel secure. Every women hates the feeling of insecurity, that's why I believe a man should always be able to protect his wife or girlfriend. Its very important for the man to stand up for his girl. My perfect spouse would not only have the looks but he would have the courage to stand up for me whenever I needed him. I would want him to be very strong so he can fight for me. But I would not only want his physical aspects to be strong but also emotional wise. I cant deal with guys that cry over everything and everyone. I do not like crying and I would not expect the man I love to cry so easily. My perfect man would have to be strong in every form.

Although my man will be strong and handsome he must also be caring. Women like to be cared and thought of all time. We aren’t toys that boys can just play with and leave to rust. We like to be polished and admired. My perfect man would be very kind to my feelings and always know what to say when the time is right. I want my man to know what to say but I don’t want him to be the very cheesy type of guy. Cheesy can sometimes be fine depends on the timing but not always.

My perfect man is what every girl wants. Its the typical dream man of every girl, however when I meet the right guy I will know for sure that that is the one guy I want to spend the rest of my life with. That will be the one guy that only sees me as his one and only wife.

are women and men equal

Since the beginning of time women were always put down after men. Men have always been the dominant character in this world. Women all throughout time has fought for their rights and they have gained many rights from doing so. However women today are still not equal to men in many things.

I myself feel that women should be equal to men because there’s not a lot that men can do that women cant. In today’s society women and men are still unequal. For every dollar that a man makes a women only makes 89 cent. I think that the world is completely not fair to say that women are unequal to men. Women all over the world has proven themselves just as good as men. However people still do not consider women equal.

Many people believe that women are just born inferior to men. That is not true. Everyone is born equal, including women. It is true that men have done many things in history that have glorified themselves as heroes. Men have always been the rulers and leaders of our country. That is only because the people has never given a chance for women to lead.

From the beginning of time men has always been leaders. They are the ones who govern us and they are also the ones to make the laws that we abide by. What makes people think that women are inferior to men? No one knows the exact answers to questions such as that. People all have different thoughts on everything and some people obviously thing that women aren’t as good as men. I feel bad for those people because they are putting down people that are just as good as them.

Women can do just as many things as men. In the old days women might not have been able to do as many things as men because the world back then was much more strict and women were punished severely for doing wheat their not suppose to do. However women has always fought for what they believe in and that has led to today's world where women are truly treated much better. Women have been on strikes and all sorts of rebellious actions to prove that they are worthy of the stands that men are in.

I feel that women can do anything that men can do. Men may be physically strong than women, but some women are truly strong than certain men. Which I think is really sad. If a women is strong that a man that she is next to that is just so bad for the mans reputation. Women are good at many things. There are many women ini the world that are very intellegent and they have won their respect. Women have been slowly climbing up the social ladder and now we are much more prosperous than before. Although I think women and men are still unequal. The equality between men and women has improved greatly.

PARADISE :)

Many people dream of living in a perfect world with no problems such as their very own utopia. Of course everyone dream utopia consists of different things. It is impossible for one person to have a completely perfect life. There will always be problems wherever you go. Things will not happen exactly as you want them to go because that is life. Although I think a paradise would be much easier to find. A paradise can just be a place where you can escape from all your problems in life and relax for a while. Some people live in a paradise. Paradise has various definitions depending on what kind of person you are.

My personal paradise would be perfect for me to just hang out with friends and not think about anything. School and life is already hard enough for everyone. My paradise would be at a private island where I could own my own yacht and I would invite all my friends and the people I like. I would ban people that I don’t like and that I think are annoying. I wouldn’t have to pay for anything on the island and the island will have everything I want.

My island wont just be like any other island it would be the one place that everyone wants but no one can own, but me. The island would always have beautiful weather and perfect temperature. Not to hot but not to cold. I could walk on the beach in a bikini and it would be completely fine. There would be no bugs or any type of insects on my island. The sand will be incredibly soft, white and clean. The ocean water surrounding my island wont be to salty that it would hurt my eyes. I would also have tons of maids and butlers walking around the island getting ready to serve me. The island will also have tiny shacks around it in case I want to eat suddenly. I will also never have to walk anywhere. I will have gold carts or other transporting automobiles whenever I call out for them.

My island would be somewhere in the ocean where there are dolphins and other sea creatures surrounding it. My island would have one huge hotel on it. It would obviously be a 5 star hotel filled with pools and one master bedroom for me. My room would be ridiculously huge with a giant queen sized bed. I would have automatic curtains that will open itself and shut itself whenever I pushed a button or clapped my hands. My room will be the best room that any young girl can ever dream of.

I will have maids and servants whenever I call for them. I would also hire the best chefs all around the world to cook for me in the best kitchen environment. I will eat different culture food every meal, but of course the food will be made with the best ingredients and also most healthy for me. I will eventually start gaining weight so I will also have a built in gym somewhere around the island. I will also have a personal trainer who isn’t to hard on me.

I will often invite all my friends to come and have huge parties. We will be able to do all the fun and exciting things on the beach such as jet skiing, para sailing, diving. I will also have sky diving. I will also have my own amusement park at night. I like amusement parks are night because everything will be lit up and the sky will be dark so everything will look really pretty.

Although I will have my own island I will sometime be lonely so I will want to have my boyfriend come and stay with me once in a while. I would not want a husband during this time because I feel that this is a time for me to be young and experience freedom. I will have my boyfriend join me and we will spend some time together just having fun and relaxing.

This is just my version of a perfect paradise. Of course this is what most young teenagers want, however you cannot be in a paradise unless you work for it. Education is needed in order to gain what you desire the most.